As times change, so does the meaning of words. Take for example "stalking" and "creeping."
In my day, they usually were used with the most negative connotations. However now, the younger generation uses them freely to talk about reading people's Facebook pages, viewing their pictures and looking at the latest status updates.
I smiled recently as I heard the sweetest little Christian girl talking about "creepin'" on someone's Facebook. Meaning, of course, she was looking at it. My daughter also talked of Facebook "stalkin'" all the time with her friends.
Well, being the oldie that I am, I am quite pleased with myself as I have became quite the stalker, creeper and even "hacker" on my late daughter's MySpace and Facebook. My kids all think it's a game to "hack" my Facebook and put that they are my favorite son, and my daughter got into the action on the Fourth of July weekend as she "hacked" me and put as my status: "My daughter is the joy of my life and my favorite child. Momma, you have now been hacked by your first born child. Muahahaha." I smile when I think about it.
Anyway, I was able to hack into her Facebook account and read her notes not yet published. I found this one. I knew now, as you know, "the rest of the story" of her life and death that it would bless your heart as it did mine. So, here's looking at my kid's heart.
For as long as I can remember I have had in my mind certain goals and things that I thought would happen. When I was a teenager, it was to finish high school, go to college, get married. However, through many different lessons I have realized that God's ways are not always my ways; but are so much better! Were any of those things that I thought I wanted, bad? Of course not, and for a lot of people that is just how it happens. But for me, God wanted to show me that what he has for me, is not what I had originally thought nor does his timing run on my watch.
A few weeks ago, my grandmother had asked me to go to Florida with and I naturally jumped at the chance to escape West Virginia's snowy winter. It gave me the opportunity to see Alli (my best friend from college). Well, last weekend we decided to take a road trip to Miami (in the convertible I rented). It was during that trip back that the Lord really began working in my heart. My iphone has a nifty little application that has maps and gps that gives directions, and during our trip Alli became my navigator, at which she did a great job. But you see, me being the person who doesn't just like to have a six-month plan, but rather a six-year plan, I was not content to know where I would turn in 1 mile. No, I wanted to know where I would be turning in the next hundred miles ... I'm sure at times Alli was ready to throw my phone (and probably me) out the window more than once ... hahaha. But it was while Alli was taking a little nap and I was trying to read the next 100 miles myself, that God truly begin working in my heart.
It was if he was saying: "you are so concerned with my will, and knowing it, and planning; to truly enjoy the journey." It hit me as quite a blow, because it was true, I have been so concerned with what turns I need to take in the coming years, to enjoy what God is doing in my life today. So with renewed conviction I have decided to completely hand over my life in the upcoming years, and yes today over into the hands of my All Skilled Navigator! Does, this mean I cannot plan? No, of course not! But it does mean, that ultimately I leave the end result to God, and allow for him to throw a wrench in my plans whenever He sees best and send me on whatever U-turns would be beneficial to him!
I received renewed perspective for my life when after going through a hassle with homeland security and explaining that I was not a terrorist and the reason that my license and Social Security card do not match is because I had changed my name back to my birth father's name, and I hadn't changed one card ... So after 20 minutes of interrogations, I was able to just make it on my flight. However, once in the sky I was able to look out and see the ground, but then above the ground was completely covered with thick fluffy clouds. But above the clouds was utter blue perfection in the sky. And it reminded me that when I look up and see only clouds, that Jesus when he looks down at my life does not just see the clouds, but he sees the blue that is just beyond waiting to break forth. It is the same in your life. I do not know what you are going through, or what you have been through, but God does and he has a plan in your life! And whereas, I can only see the here and now, he sees my life in its entirety, regardless of how long or how brief it may be.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13
Perhaps, you are like me and don't just want to know the step ahead, but you want to know 20 miles down the path. Let go of your expectations and allow God to lead you. In the Bible I have been told that when people needed to travel at night time they would strap a little clay pot onto their sandal, so it would shed light on the path ahead, but it would only give enough light for the step ahead. Literally, sheds light to the verse, "Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path."
A little quote that I heard a long time ago comes to mind, "You can trust the one who died for you!" So whatever, you are facing, no matter what questions are plaguing your mind, you can trust the one who died for you!
By Kristin Short, Nov. 9,1985- July 4, 2011.
(Kimberly Morgan, MA, is a homeschool mom and wife in Elkins. She is also co-founder of Kristin's Hope, a non-profit organization founded in memory of Kristin Short to aid victims of human trafficking and domestic violence and to assist the needy in the Appalachian Mountains. She is a counselor with Cornerstone Counseling. She can be reached at 304-637-1109.)